Mommy Confessions

Welcome to this week's addition of mommy confessions. Well, they're not so much confessions. More like things I was thinking while writing this post that have happened recently. Regardless, I hope you enjoy reading.

1. I hate dealing with insurance with Clara. She's on mine and her dad's and it's all so confusing.

2. Praise the Lord for awesome people! We had an issue with Clara's insurance. The person I called walked me through everything dealing with a bill that was unpaid and help me figure out what happened and now it's all taken care of. It was a huge headache and not in her job description, but she took her time to help me anyway. Awesomeness. 

3. I LOVE MOPS. We had our gathering of the month today. It is so good to spend time with other young moms and get my questions answered. 

4. I think Clara is getting sick (again) and it's really not cool. I know babies get sick, but I'm tired of weeks full of doctor appointments and hospital visits. I hope she just has a cold and that it's going away soon.

5. The next two weeks are my sorority's new member education. That means welcoming new members into the sisterhood family, and seeing lots of old friends and alumni. I'm super excited. 

6. Planning a birthday party is STRESSFUL! I didn't think it would be this difficult, and I suppose that it could be easier if I put less effort into it, but it's her first birthday and I want it to be special. And also, I love to plan. So I guess it's not that bad after all.

7. I'm making/buying (I'm not sure which yet) a play kitchen for Clara for her birthday. Yes, I realize that she can't really play with it yet, but she will soon. And I'm making felt food for it. And I'm really excited. Come to think of it, I may play with said kitchen more than Clara will for awhile. I hope she's ok with it. 

8. Clara started waking up at night and not going to bed easily. And by not easily, I mean she screams until I pick her up. I know, I deserve it after having a baby that slept through the night for 10 months. But. I think it will be fine. I got some great tips from other moms at MOPS today, and I think they'll work. We'll be back to the old schedule here soon. 

9. Clara will be 11 months old on Sunday. When did that happen? I mean, I know people kept telling me that it would go by fast, but holy cow! Ridiculous. Now begins the real countdown to birthday time. 

10. I'm in a really good place in my life right now, and I'm really excited about it. I'm looking at going back to school here soon and advancing in my career opportunities. I don't talk about it often here, but GOD is GREAT!

Here's a cute baby =)

Mommy Confessions

1. I enjoy grocery shopping on my own way too much. It's so nice to just wander without a baby to be concerned about and having to hurry before she gets bored. I could grocery shop for hours. It's like going to the spa.

2. I wore my maternity jeans for far too long after giving birth. They're just so comfy. I don't feel bad about it. It was like wearing sweatpants. It almost made me buy pajama jeans.

3. I'm getting really bored with a lot of Clara's books. She has a bajillion paper books, but only like 10-15 board books. She rips the paper out of the paper books, so we have to stick to the board books. We read through them all a few times a day. I'm getting so bored of them. I can't wait until we can move on to more books.

4. I dread the day that my big sis reminds me is coming eventually... the day I can't use the bathroom in peace without a toddler coming in to "help" me.

5. I feed Clara organic and all-natural food. It kills me when she eats something and I don't know the ingredients. I know, I know, someday I probably won't care so much. I'm pretty sure I'm so controlling about it because I feel guilty for having to quit breastfeeding after only 5 months. It was depressing. I felt like a failure. I just want her to get the best nutrition since I couldn't give it to her via breast milk.

6. I really enjoy Clara's naps... almost too much. I look forward to them every day. I can get so much done while she's sleeping. I feel like I can't leave her side when she's awake, and it takes me 5 times as long to get it done.

7. Clara loves my mom more than me and it makes me really jealous. The second my mom walks in, Clara pushes away from me to get to her. She lights up, and gets super excited when she sees her. When I pick her up from daycare, she smiles, but that's about it. With my mom, she tracks her around the room. She won't take her eyes off her. It breaks my heart.

8. When Clara's Dad and I were together, I would sometimes turn the baby monitor up and sit it next to him when I heard Clara start to stir just so I could sleep in. It worked like 5% of the time. He's a heavy sleeper.

9. When Clara is sick, it's terrible and sad. But it's kind of awesome. I get the BEST cuddles all day. It's a guilty pleasure.

10. I'm terrified that Clara will hate me someday. I'm also scared that she'll look back someday when she has kids and think  I was a terrible mother.

Confessions.

This may possibly be a weekly post, borrowed from Shutter{Mama}, one of my favorite blogs. Let me know what you think of the idea.

1. I'm not going to work tomorrow. Instead, I'm going to MOPS (mothers of pre-schoolers) and having a play date. Why? Because MOPS and play dates are awesome. Sometimes, I just need to spend some time with other moms. The friends I do play dates with are great. We vent about the hard stuff in life, eat comfort food, trade stories and tips, and most importantly, we relax.

2. I eat ketchup on everything potato-based. Not usually in front of people, though.

3. I'm really ambitious about DIY things, and crafts. But sometimes, I get a little ahead of myself. I think I can do things, but I can't. And I know better. But, I would like to THINK I will do them. It's entertaining.

4. I haven't brushed my teeth since Saturday. Gross.

5. Sometimes, I think I'm a lot skinnier than I am. I think I look really awesome in what I'm wearing. Then I see myself in a mirror. Dream? Crushed.

6. I literally drink at least two cans of diet coke a day. Do you know what that does to your teeth? Maybe I should brush them more.

7. I'm pretty sure Clara thinks I'm the meanest mom. Her Dad lets her pull out all the dvds from the bottom shelf, and play with the (unplugged) nintendo controllers. The only thing she can get her hands on in my living room are the phone line, the cable cord, and newspapers. I don't let her play with the cords because, well, they're electrical cables. And newspapers she tears and eats. Gosh. I'm so mean.

8. I'm obsessed with shows that aren't on tv anymore. I find them online, and I watch them until the show is concluded, then I get mad that the show concluded... 3 years ago...

9. I tell myself the thinspiration saying that nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. But goat cheese tastes pretty f'ing delicious.

10. Things that are very difficult for me to do: water ski, ski (on snow), fold a fitted sheet, talk on the phone (I get super awkward and don't know what to say), not belch in an inappropriate situation.


Let me know what you think of this as a possible weekly post. Do you have any confessions you'd like to share?